I was on the jeep a few minutes ago and along Boni Avenue we passed this carwash shop from where a mist was billowing out onto the street. It looked (but did not feel) like fog, and my heart skipped a beat. I miss you.
I’m trapped in these starts and stops, love. For numerous times since August (the last time we saw each other) I was occupied with this gargantuan task of hoarding enough strength to finally get on a bus and go to you. About three times I got thisclose. I actually sent text messages letting people know that I was coming, just so I would actually come. Buy a ticket, get on a bus, see you. It’s so easy. But I’m a coward because I love you too much and I am enveloped, each time, by fear.
My dear Baguio City, I miss you so much it manifests as an actual throbbing pain. This June it will have been 10 months since we last saw each other, this is the longest I haven’t been to you in the last 12 years. I miss my friends, your smell, your alleys, the fog, those misty mornings and afternoons, and most of all, who I am when I am with you.
My world, love, for just one more day with you.
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whew!
Mache, dine-decode ko yung ibig sabihin ng ‘Whew’ mo. (Or it can just really mean what it says.)
Why am I overthinking again, I must be off my meds.
(Hi Mache.) (-:
I’m the one trying to decode this love letter
…what I got is a whopping “Whew!”
(Hello, Kat!)
miss ko na ang baguio! at miss na din kita! hehehe! manila here i come!
I love your photo Kat! Good job!
Stop trying and go. Seriously. The first step is always the hardest. It has always been. You don’t need any push or hurrah from anybody. All you need is yourself and you’re there.
Cmon Kat. You know you want to go. Why kid yourself?
As I remember from a very old article in RD:
“Throw your hat over the fence. Then you’ll find a way to get to the other side and get it.”
Hey John! I like kidding myself, is why. Haha, I’d love to go but the truth is that Baguio is some sort of hell for me, too, right now. So, um, better not subject myself to hell for now. (-: